i feel lighter. like never before. i'm so excited that it's finally gonna hit october in about 3 fucking days. then when it does, it means i'm left with two months of wait.

i've been hanging out with old friends recently.

they're entertaining and there's loads to share when

the other is willg to listen and also share.

i dont know why but i feel like i'm crapping about.

i've got the new notebook sent it frm brunei from love.x

it's heavy like me, but it's pretty and i love it.

i've got work tonight and i feel freaking heavy to move out

of this chair. i just want to sit here all day and not go anywhere sometimes.

or i just wanna stay home with my little sister and my bigger sister and just

laugh at each other like we do for 15 minutes of our lives in a week.

i think i know why i dont look forward to this festive season.

i think i like x'mas more.

because, it's really nice to be alone,

cold at night having hot soup.

then chocolates and champagne and vodka.

should be fucking wow.

thats why, i love x'mas.

x

i miss you, love.