to fall asleep, it's a must for me to write something. anything just as long as i write .. i'll fall asleep. apologies to all of you but i cant make it this thursday. i've got guest at home. so i need to stay/be home. the rain clouds calling in now, i just woke up and i feel poisoned under my skin. it's cold again.

time does travel fast now. and everyone knows the world ends whenever it wants to. if it ended with man made destruction, then too bad. but if it god's will. ok fuck it. it's travelling so fast that i'll fall asleep and miss half the day. not like a slept long. but you feel the day turns to dark sooner than you wished. that's why, i've been trying to stay to satisfy myslf. like i lived my life to the fullest feeling.