eyja,

i miss you. i know you're not gonna read this. i neo no one would anyway. it's been hard trying to fall aslp. although we shared fucked up conversations every fucking nite. it's fucked up, way worst than i thought it would be, my love. long john will be waiting until i see you again. iam bck to square one. to write before i sleep. i hate myslf to haf to do this post. sappy. job's done. i cant play the sims. comp's shitty. ok.

so i had dinner with the girls the night you went off. the girls were different and fun. everyone smokes now. woweey.the thing is, babe, let's go for a drink & get fucking drunk for fuck and dance when we meet again ok, eyja? i've been too sober for very long, very long. let's have your favourite BAILEY'S & miLk. then Gin&Milk in a teacup! i love you.

Love, lot's of fucking love,
shaa.

ps: i miss talking to fucked up you, rayza.

now i feel like this.