the thing is, you dont haf to tell me anything later. i tell you now tt it's been hard knowing i'd ony be aslp after 3 now so very often. thinking abt you. you dont haf to tell me it must be hard on me or whatever. if tears were fats, iam obese than obese now. but i wanna stop being such a silly fuck tearing all the time.

iam a silly fuck.
iam sure.

dreadful day.