my younger sister is talking like she has lived half her living life? haha. how can you say someone is treating you like an adult when you barely knew this person. DONT SNAP SNAP PPL when you yourslf cant think properly yet la. how long haf you known this person to put away your other siblings. i was disappointed tt you ignore sufyan's concerns towards you little kid. he loves you and tt's all. if you dun want ppl to fucking care. then go your fucking way. i still think tt she's bad influence. if you're being fucked one day, and you need help, i'll check my schedule if iam free. you fuckin forgot abt. it's like i wasted my time on you. haf the time of your life.

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i dun remember not telling farhana abt my kidstuffs. i tell farhana alot of things she had to know. so tt she can lead me in some ways in life until, i feel i am old enough. well i dun haf a fucking sibling who needs me now. iam free. i dun remember putting syims before farhana eventhough we're bestfrens or syimah is always there for me. I HAVE KNOWN NUR HASYIMAH ABDUL GHANI for six years before i realise, she treats me like wad i want to be treatd. but i never, put my friends, before family. or maybe, someone who sleeps with me at night. they see my nightmare and smiles in my dreams. fuck.

-syims, if you're reading this. iam lucky to haf found a friend in you. iam lucky you haf not drawn my attention away from my family.iam glad tt you still gave me space to share my problems wit ppl at home.i still love awak syims.

hey, dun pretend to cry and shits la eh. you dun need me. when iam not hopin to be there for you fuck off sudahlaa. kau kakak kau. aper care pon kau masok rumah aku, ader adat puki. salam ah. puki kawan kau fikir cute pe sak.sundal.- she can read this if she wants to. you made me.-it's been twice. if you wanna choose. choose properly, if you dun fuck off, i'll fuck off.bye! i dun care who you are aredy. i wont cry this time. haha.

rayza will be working soon.
i will be alone. it takes a day.
if you're not there for me.

-thanks. i dun nou u aredy. i mean. i dun remember you.